alice

I’ve ended up completely loving my job.

Really and honestly and completely. I don’t want to leave.

I’ve learnt that things always work out. Maybe in a different way to how you imagined it, or how you think you wanted it, but it’s always for the best. Even when things go wrong, it’s for the best. It didn’t happen any other way, and it never will again. It’s been and gone, so I think just make the most of what’s happened, and think of it in a good light. I really have found that everything always works out, you know. Everything that scares me and worries me and wastes my time because I spend ages thinking, oh god, how do I do that?. It all works out. And it’s not because I’m a ‘lucky’ person, and everything always goes right for me. It’s because I want it to work out, and I believe it does. That’s who I am as a person. Plenty of stuff doesn’t go exactly as I would perhaps like it to, but it doesn’t really piss me off or get me angry, because I don’t like being angry and I don’t like feeling pissed off.

Stuff just happens, and I kinda believe everything happens for a reason. When something goes wrong, it forces you to find a solution and resolve the situation.

Enough of the philosophical shit haha.

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That I have not played my oboe properly in about two and a half years. To be fair, for two of those years it was impossible for me to do so, thanks to my brace, but I got that off last May and since then I’ve only played a couple of times, and my heart has not been in it.

I was thinking last night what a shame it was. A £1000 instrument I actually have a skill at playing and I’m letting it go to waste? Screw that, I’m playing it again.

My iPod quiz tells me it’s the hardest wind instrument to play. I can believe that.